Am I crying because its expected?
or do I really feel this grief?
How can they think they know how im feeling?
when they dont know whats underneath.
In remembrance
August 16th, 2010Against all odds..
August 3rd, 2010Principles and applications of web Services (technology): A3
Digital Entertainment Systems: A1
Web Application development (design): A3
Professional Issues in computing: A3
Who needs a sidebar?
July 25th, 2010I know that folks check out sites in an ‘F’ fashion, I know about SEO basics and understand some advertising strategy, I know my site is a little less than accessible (one of the main reasons it’s due an overhaul) but this is my PERSONAL site and most folks use the RSS feed to access it anyhow.
Revision for professional issues in computing
June 30th, 2010This is for my last exam which is tomorrow – the blogging my revision trick seemed to work quite well for PAWS so lets see how I get on with PIC. A lot of this is cut and paste so most links will be to where ever the information has been taken – if anyone has issue with it being here just drop me a line and I’ll remove the post.. heh.. Now that’s professional.. *grin* Read the rest of this entry »
Revision for Principles and Applications of Web Services
June 20th, 2010I’ve neglected to blog for a while and figure that since repetition is the best way to learn I should kill two birds with one stone and share a little of what I’ve been going through today.. So read on if you’re trying to sleep – it’ll help cure insomnia – trust me. Read the rest of this entry »
Modest life ambitions
May 28th, 2010I didn’t choose to do an IT degree with a view to becoming any kind of hotshot programmer/ web designer, despite my love of html and most things web; my first choice would have been any number of the jewellery/ crafting courses on offer even though most are not of a degree standard.
Memories and musings
May 5th, 2010“She greets us as we enter the world; she is with us when we leave it. She is never more than a second away from us, as close as our own heartbeat; but when she does not stand directly before us, we cannot recall her face.
When she calls, loud and clear, we drop whatever we are doing and attend to her needs alone. At the touch of her hand we forget work, friends and lovers. She is the mistress of the universe. She is pain”
Thursday at the Gadget Show Live
April 9th, 2010As the NEC is such a large place you can probably guess that this post will not be especially short so I apologies in advance for that.
I propose a ban on sex
April 1st, 2010..but only for three months a year – every year. I know, enforcing such a ban would be impossible – but if it were a possibility..
Having ME/CFS is humiliating
March 23rd, 2010It’s bad enough having all this crap wrong with us, being knackered and in pain all the sodding time while still managing to look the picture of health, people don’t think there’s anything wrong with you and that you’re making a mountain out of a molehill.
The geeks guide to ME/CFS
January 11th, 2010A conversation with @elmundio87 got me thinking earlier;
Social media in education #mcl3
December 7th, 2009I’m obviously at a loose end what with uni being so slow and my course load so light [/sarcasm] so I’ve agreed to take a session at the forthcoming MediaCamp London 3 (twitter tag #mcl3)
Is the Real Time Web stunting creativity?
November 6th, 2009Perhaps this post should really have been entitled GTD vs the Real Time Web..
Most folks are aware of the GTD method created by David Allen and coming up fast behind in the awareness stakes is the Pomodoro technique created by Francesco Cirillo.
Blogging, course work and ME/CFS
October 27th, 2009When I first started this blog I had no life; I was working every hour god sent and a few more to boot until I really had no life because the ME/CFS took it away. I had a great deal to say and a great deal of time in which to say it – even though most of it was waffle and has since been consigned to the ether with a click of the delete key.
Mancunian incompetance follows me down south
August 27th, 2009My run ins with the Manchester city council Revenues and Benefits Unit have sadly been many and incompetance is the most I have learned to expect from them over the years.
Victoria Stringer; getting professional?
August 15th, 2009I’ve been culling posts left right and centre from this blog so that I can ‘streamline’ the content when I merge my other blogs to it during the (hopefully soon) site redesign and update I’ve been working on. Doing so I’ve discovered many things; not least the changes in my writing style and the tone and content of the posts themselves.
You aren’t what you own
July 23rd, 2009My immediate family have always been amazed at my ability to live quite happily on very little income – in fact the most miserable I ever was was when I tried to keep 2 jobs going to garner more disposable income. I know this as recently I’ve been culling old posts from this blog and 5 years ago I was miserable, stressed, run down and incredibly overworked and as a result developed ME/CFS.
Motherhood and college
June 19th, 2009I’ve managed to complete my foundation degree with flying colours and yes I’m damned proud of myself.
Blended learning (twitter tag #iblc09 )
June 17th, 2009I’ve spent today at the 4th international blended learning conference at the University of Hertfordshire.
But you don’t look ill..
May 3rd, 2009
Physically I am very lucky; despite my grumbles my natural body shape falls within the bounds of curvy as opposed to noticeably overweight – even post-pregnancy. I eat healthily and try to avoid stress as much as possible because stress exacerbates my condition. All of which lends itself to the physical appearance of a healthy young woman.
HCI as a student sees it
April 30th, 2009This is a post about future developments in HCI from one of my studynet blogs. As my HCI exam approaches I figured – why not use it here as well? There are many of you twitterers and facebooky types interested in this too, no need just to share thoughts of this nature with the studious ones counting down to May 13th..
Stuff to do, things to buy..
April 11th, 2009I really can’t wait for this next month or so to be over – on the one hand YEY I’ll have completed a foundation degree in IT for Multimedia and I’ll be hopping stright onto the third year of a Bsc (hons) IT (entertainment systems) degree in September because my grades are high enough that even failing my current crop of assignments won’t affect automatic acceptance.
Beading video post
March 15th, 2009I promised my twitter followers a beading post a while back, and since getting the flip I’ve been promising a video blog so.. Ta-dah! 2 birds, one badly filmed stone *grin*
Testing out flash video functionality
February 15th, 2009I’ve just recently added another plugin to this blog because I want to start adding video content (without uploading to youtube first) I know I’m a tad late coming to the v-log sphere but better late than never eh?!
Worries about the future
February 11th, 2009
I have the opportunity to progress onto the third year of a Bachelor of science honours degree next year.
However, I’m not sure if I will get the funding to do so because of my wasted year on the BA(hons) popular music and recording degree at Salford university in 2001.
I’ve come a long way
February 6th, 2009Back in 2005 I was getting to grips with ME/CFS and how it had changed my life, things were pretty bleak: Read the rest of this entry »
WordPress thoughts
February 3rd, 2009I’m currently in the process of sorting out a website for my ‘final’ year project, I’m using wordpress to create a site for a peripatetic music teacher based in Surrey (who just also happens to be my best friend..)
Tempted
January 10th, 2009Whilst browsing a couple of jewellers forums I came across a link to a course in silver metalwork at college lane in the evenings (My uni campus which is luckily walking distance from the home) as well as a kiln fused glass course, for the fantastic sum of £175 each.. If only I had more time and energy *sigh*
A meme
January 8th, 2009It’s been soooo long since I’ve done something this bloggy (as in community of bloggers type bloggy) I saw this on the LittleBead blog (which I found following through from her twitter page) who got it from Swirly and despite not knowing the lass (though I’m now following on twitter, gotta love the fellow beaders on the web when you find ‘em) I’m going to do a meme.
rocking around the christmas tree
December 21st, 2008This is the song that has been running around in my head for DAYS! Kill me, just kill me now.
No this is not going to be one of those bah humbug type posts – i’m not allowed to bah humbug anymore – I have a child, I’ve now got to embrace the joys of Christmas and foster a belief in santa – something that may eventually lead to a schoolyard kicking as said belief disintegrates, but why borrow trouble eh? We’ve got a good 3-4 years before that happens – and anyway, I’ve found a place that teaches kung-fu to kids..
Catching up
November 8th, 2008I’m now back at college full time and really playing catchup as far as my assignments go. As well as a research project to write, I have java program to create and 2 websites to build; one for my work based learning project (which is why a few twitters have been about gantt charts and project proposals and the like) and the other is to be for a childrens charity – which is why I’ve chosen to highlight AYME the Association of Young People with ME.
Salute to the IT support guys..
October 31st, 2008A couple of weeks ago my technology hating brother called me to talk him through opening a work document his girlfriend had emailed to herself.
Breastfeeding is damned hard!
October 12th, 2008The person who first described breastfeeding as a marvelous bonding experience has a strange mind to my way of thinking. Through the experience I’ve had over the last 5 weeks I’d say it’s more akin to shock treatment!
Isabella Aurelia – the early days
September 6th, 2008Well, we’re now home for the second night with our beautiful little girl. She’s like a cross between ET and the baby octopus thing from Men in Black that spews all over Will Smith.
We has internetz!
August 12th, 2008RAH!!!!!
Yup, talk talk finally came through yesterday evening so I’m back where I belong: in front of a computer screen.
There may be trouble ahead..
July 17th, 2008It’s been pretty hectic since the social media conference, I’ve had furniture delivered, a plumber round to fix ‘stuff’ attended an antenatal class with Stef and been to a wedding; after which I had the biggest scare of my life..
Fun times!
June 22nd, 2008I’m really looking forward to mediacamp london, I’ve already spread the word facebook style but as it gets closer I’m getting all a-jiggle about it. This will be my first social media event and I’m just really looking forward to soaking up the atmosphere, conversations and hopefully learning something in the process.
I was going to drag Stef along with me as I think he’d find it interesting too but he’s got a stag do to attend so I guess I’ll be all on my lonesome – if any of you are about and at a loose end on July 5th, come down to the SAE Institute North Road, London and say hi to the dark haired fat chick waddling along the corridors – ignore any muttered curses from her direction though, that’s just a side effect of pregnancy when the unborn brat decides to use her guts as a punchbag..
I’m so happy that I..
June 17th, 2008..Can’t stop smiling!
Today has been a GOOD day! I finally won a nursing chair and stool set on eBay – I’ve been after one of these beauties for weeks but they keep going beyond my limit, today I not only won the auction I got it for half the price all those others had gone for – under £50 in fact.
Kids eh?!
June 9th, 2008Stef and I have spent the last week or so trawling autotrader and the like for a decent family car to replace the fiat coupe monstrosity he currently cherishes, as part of this mammoth undertaking we also visited a car auction on Saturday. Armed with the parkers price guide we wandered the lot and argued the merits of dozens. It was a strange experience, not the least because we’re really not sure as to the type of car best suited to our needs – I had to pull the salivating lad away from the tastily priced Jag with the reminder that it wouldn’t be as pretty when covered in baby sick..
Looking up!
May 31st, 2008Yesterday I paid up the admin charge/holding fee for a flat in Hatfield. In a weeks time the credit check and vetting process should be complete and I’ll be picking up the keys and signing a contract – assuming no problems of course..
Yeah yeah..
May 23rd, 2008I know, I’ve been a bad blogger, in all honesty I’ve not had the taste for it over the last few months because so much of what I want to say can’t be said, not here, not online. That’s the downside to having a personal blog, every post has consequences. Since becoming pregnant I’ve started culling earlier posts for just that reason – amazing how our views change about things as we gestate eh?! Also lunarpages have had a disturbing amount of downtime over the last few months so even when the taste or urge to blog has been strong, access has not! it’s just fortunate I’m not looking to earn a living from this blog otherwise I’d have been down a fair few sheckles as they sorted themselves out which is why I’m currently looking at other hosts for when I’m due to renew.
No news is good news sometimes
May 3rd, 2008In this age of instant information we’re all aware of how the media struggles to keep up and ‘beat the competition’ unfortunately this can become an irresponsible obsession.
Things to remember
April 27th, 2008Gloria Swanson is reputed to have said
My mother and I could always look out the same window without ever seeing the same thing
Rock Band – the joys and the woes
April 22nd, 2008The fellah and I have been invited to a gaming weekend in reading this week – featured will be the eagerly awaited Rock Band *happy dances*
The international net
March 24th, 2008..I wish *sigh*
Half the interesting ‘new media’ apps are USA based and every website I’ve looked at for things I’ve considered purchasing of late are ‘ship to US only’ sites *sniff* ah well, I’ve taken to collecting pretty pictures instead with which to console myself. Let’s face it, I’m unlikely to have the cash to spend on pretty things soon, everyone seems determined to tell me how expensive childrearing will be – like I hadn’t already figured that out for myself!
New favourites
March 22nd, 2008I’m a typical girl in only one respect; I like pretty sparkly things of the jewelled persuasion but no matter how much perusing of the net and local jewellers I may have done I’ve never really found a gem that makes me go ‘OMG I MUST HAVE THAT!’ at least not until today.
Exploring the pregnancy id
March 13th, 2008I was just ‘chatting’ to a few of the lasses on the birth forum I joined about dreams and how vivid and scary they are at the moment. I tried to explain that my dreams have always been like that and turned to this blog for an example – which is when I became sidetracked.
Antenatal yoga
March 11th, 2008It was an interesting evening, not the most auspicious of starts seeing as I was lying there thinking “ugh what a waste of time, I shouldn’t have bothered” but then I’ve never been able to ‘get’ relaxation exercises where you have to close your eyes and imagine a string pulling your head straight and the breath cycling through your body.. You know, the ‘ball of light’ type of exercises – I do have a cracking imagination but for some reason all I feel is daft and cynical when I hear that kind of talk, it doesn’t relax me it just makes me feel uncomfortable and out of place.
Procrastination and college life
February 29th, 2008I’m currently sat in the ‘career planning’ lesson (most pointless lesson on the currculum) and I’m supposed to be blogging on studynet about: Read the rest of this entry »
First scan
February 28th, 2008I’ve emailed and facebooked and sent texts but have just not found the energy to blog about it until now – can you believe even STEF beat me to the blogging?
News
February 24th, 2008Ok, to fill you all in on just why my posting has been pants for the last few months and why I’ve been so ill and why I’ve barely posted anything else. You see, when you have something big happening in your life it’s all you want to write about – especially on a personal blog like this, but no..
My beloved has been adamant that we shouldn’t tell people our news until after we’ve had the first scan and know for sure that everything is ok – I’ve not been able to blog or stay online because it’s just too hard to keep the secret to myself, but Friday night he went out with all his male cousins and they got to hear the news in the pub – even though we won’t be going for the scan until tuesday..
Getting creative
February 21st, 2008We went to visit my folks during reading week, while we were there the subject of my writing talent came up again (as it usually does when they start discussing what I should be doing with my life – family eh?!)
Bags of stuff
January 28th, 2008The latest college assignments had me chuckling; first of all we have to keep a career planning blog, they’re trying to initiate some sort of micro social network within the group with these – at least that’s how it seems. They all have to be public, we are all supposed to keep up to date with each others progress and comment on that progress, they also want us to participate in polls and discussion boards.. This would be all fine and dandy assuming the techie responsible for setting up these career planning blogs had made it possible for us to add new entries *grin*
Getting ahead of myself
January 16th, 2008Seems I should check my paperwork more carefully, I’m still fully hosted right up until june YEY!
*grin*
Being an adult
January 5th, 2008I said to Stef on new years eve that I’d not made any resolutions this year, but as I sat down to write this post I realised that I lied.
Stuff. It’s all good. Well..
December 5th, 2007Hurrah! for internet shopping say I.
Yup, aside from the beady goodness recently purchased from Hobbycraft (just a little hint there for my female relatives, that’s right it’s home made jewelery for you again this year *grin* learn to love it!) Christmas shopping online was practically finished by the end of November, that makes me very happy.
Happiness.
November 19th, 2007Today I woke up smiling. I was warm and wrapped in loving arms and the tendrils of sleep still clung to me, carrying over the image of paradise from my dream.
Clowns to the left of ME..
November 5th, 2007I’ve been following the You & Yours spot about ME/CFS on BBC Radio 4 out of idle curiosity, I’m not expecting any great shakes from it but it’s certainly pulling a few cockroaches out of the woodwork..
Chaos – the one true God.
October 14th, 2007Been thinking a lot about life and religion lately – don’t ask me why, these thought percolate through my head on occasion (especially if I’ve spent a lot of time confined to bed)The conclusion I’ve come to is that I think I do believe in God. Not your God of course, because they way I see it no matter the title, nobody has the same God, even if they give him the same name and worship in the same way, we all view her differently.
Comfort
September 29th, 2007There are times when everybody just wants a hug, it doesn’t always matter where the hug comes from they just need to feel the close physical presence of another person and the comfort it brings – you don’t even need to be upset or worried about anything, there’s just something in the human make-up that craves physical contact.
Learning..
September 28th, 2007It’s been a mad couple of weeks all told.
There was the rush up to Manchester to make sure all the funding for my course was sorted, it would have been simple and stress free had it not been for the time stood at the side of the M6 in the pouring rain with a non-functioning car - Andy will always be my saviour for driving down to pick us up so that I could make that appointment.
Blog for ‘stuff’
September 5th, 2007I’m thinking there must be something in the air, bloggers are giving away a tonne of stuff for free!
Well, not exactly for ‘free’ but there’s many a ‘blog about this and you could win..‘ type post knocking about at present. The first one I noticed was for a game – a very pretty game called Quartile I chuckled to myself and sent a tweet out about it, it looks like it could be interesting to play and if it truly can help you with mental arithmatic then it’s something I could definitely do with *grin*
The M.E. interview
September 2nd, 2007A while back Sean Fisher asked to interview me as part of his journalism coursework, he wanted to ask me things about ME/CFS and how it affected my life.
Sean was actually living with me when I first came down with the illness so he knew me before, during and after and has seen first hand how debilitating it is and just what a change it makes to a persons life – which is why I agreed, I hate to talk about those things normally because I cry, just thinking about it makes me cry – I hate crying, especially in front of other people so normally I’ll either avoid the topic or make some throwaway statement before hastily changing the subject.
Leaving a useable email address helps..
August 30th, 2007(and yes I did try moving the ‘dot’ before you point that out HK *grin*)
On 8/30/07, Matt Cotter < Matt@dimacc.om> wrote: Read the rest of this entry »
I like to move it move it..
August 30th, 2007We got back to Manchester sometime around 3am Wednesday morning, I have to say, I missed my pc.. Not because it’s a great pc – far from it, but because it has all my files and bookmarks in situ, which is why today I sat and weeded out all the useless stuff and dead links I’ve bookmarked over the last three years and added both ‘bookmark duplicate detector‘ and ‘Foxmarks bookmark synchronizer‘ to my list of ‘must have’ firefox add ons.
The Bridge Across Forever
August 24th, 2007I’ve always written down my thoughts and my feelings, many a time as a kid and young adult I’d sit up late at night scribbling notes into a diary or onto a nondescript pad of A4 paper. Having a blog has just made the process easier, typing is quicker than writing and I can capture my thoughts more fully, editing is simpler; merely a matter of highlighting text as opposed to laboriously copying the same thing over and over again as I refine the message I’m trying to get across.
Cunning spam
August 17th, 2007I’m not entirely sure why but this blog has had an explosion of visitors of late – I can only assume twitter and the socialset site have something to do with it..
The after party shoe
August 8th, 2007I’ve just come across this site and I have to say.. What a brilliant idea.
The redfootrevolution is here. There is nothing worse than that crippling sensation at the end of the night if you’ve been wearing heels – I was recently reminded of this after wearing an old pair for the first time in over a year.. Ouch.
Shell Island
August 6th, 2007I’ve discovered that I’m still not completely weaned away from my net addiction. We’ve been camping and not only did I have a complete lack of phone signal (which didn’t really bother me too much) but there was no internet – that did bother me.
I could live without my mobile. Honest..
July 29th, 2007I’ve been at my dads all week – hence lack of posting or general web presence. You see my dad is still using BT for his net connection – and it’s pants! That and his pc needs reformatting and basically mending with a new one (which Stef will be doing as soon as I get off here)
Congratulations
July 18th, 2007To Laura-Jane & Allan.
It was an absolutely fabulous wedding on Sunday – so fabulous in fact that it’s taken me until today to recover from it *grin*
It’s the little things that make life worth living
July 14th, 2007I started today with a bad CFS/ME attack, Stef once more had to do the carrying to and from the bathroom thing because I couldn’t physically move, grunting was the highest form of communication at my command and I felt like crap. I’m still aching to buggery and I’m soooo tired it’s untrue.. But I don’t care.
Petty satisfactions
July 13th, 2007I know, I’m supposed to be working at becoming a better person yada yada yada. I can’t help it though.
Saving the environment a card at a time
July 6th, 2007Nik aka loudmouthman has become my net pusher.