Am I crying because its expected?
or do I really feel this grief?
How can they think they know how im feeling?
when they dont know whats underneath.
In remembrance
August 16th, 2010Against all odds..
August 3rd, 2010Principles and applications of web Services (technology): A3
Digital Entertainment Systems: A1
Web Application development (design): A3
Professional Issues in computing: A3
Who needs a sidebar?
July 25th, 2010I know that folks check out sites in an ‘F’ fashion, I know about SEO basics and understand some advertising strategy, I know my site is a little less than accessible (one of the main reasons it’s due an overhaul) but this is my PERSONAL site and most folks use the RSS feed to access it anyhow.
Modest life ambitions
May 28th, 2010I didn’t choose to do an IT degree with a view to becoming any kind of hotshot programmer/ web designer, despite my love of html and most things web; my first choice would have been any number of the jewellery/ crafting courses on offer even though most are not of a degree standard.
I propose a ban on sex
April 1st, 2010..but only for three months a year – every year. I know, enforcing such a ban would be impossible – but if it were a possibility..
Social media in education #mcl3
December 7th, 2009I’m obviously at a loose end what with uni being so slow and my course load so light [/sarcasm] so I’ve agreed to take a session at the forthcoming MediaCamp London 3 (twitter tag #mcl3)
You aren’t what you own
July 23rd, 2009My immediate family have always been amazed at my ability to live quite happily on very little income – in fact the most miserable I ever was was when I tried to keep 2 jobs going to garner more disposable income. I know this as recently I’ve been culling old posts from this blog and 5 years ago I was miserable, stressed, run down and incredibly overworked and as a result developed ME/CFS.
Motherhood and college
June 19th, 2009I’ve managed to complete my foundation degree with flying colours and yes I’m damned proud of myself.
Stuff to do, things to buy..
April 11th, 2009I really can’t wait for this next month or so to be over – on the one hand YEY I’ll have completed a foundation degree in IT for Multimedia and I’ll be hopping stright onto the third year of a Bsc (hons) IT (entertainment systems) degree in September because my grades are high enough that even failing my current crop of assignments won’t affect automatic acceptance.
A meme
January 8th, 2009It’s been soooo long since I’ve done something this bloggy (as in community of bloggers type bloggy) I saw this on the LittleBead blog (which I found following through from her twitter page) who got it from Swirly and despite not knowing the lass (though I’m now following on twitter, gotta love the fellow beaders on the web when you find ‘em) I’m going to do a meme.
rocking around the christmas tree
December 21st, 2008This is the song that has been running around in my head for DAYS! Kill me, just kill me now.
No this is not going to be one of those bah humbug type posts – i’m not allowed to bah humbug anymore – I have a child, I’ve now got to embrace the joys of Christmas and foster a belief in santa – something that may eventually lead to a schoolyard kicking as said belief disintegrates, but why borrow trouble eh? We’ve got a good 3-4 years before that happens – and anyway, I’ve found a place that teaches kung-fu to kids..
Catching up
November 8th, 2008I’m now back at college full time and really playing catchup as far as my assignments go. As well as a research project to write, I have java program to create and 2 websites to build; one for my work based learning project (which is why a few twitters have been about gantt charts and project proposals and the like) and the other is to be for a childrens charity – which is why I’ve chosen to highlight AYME the Association of Young People with ME.
There may be trouble ahead..
July 17th, 2008It’s been pretty hectic since the social media conference, I’ve had furniture delivered, a plumber round to fix ‘stuff’ attended an antenatal class with Stef and been to a wedding; after which I had the biggest scare of my life..
I’m so happy that I..
June 17th, 2008..Can’t stop smiling!
Today has been a GOOD day! I finally won a nursing chair and stool set on eBay – I’ve been after one of these beauties for weeks but they keep going beyond my limit, today I not only won the auction I got it for half the price all those others had gone for – under £50 in fact.
Yeah yeah..
May 23rd, 2008I know, I’ve been a bad blogger, in all honesty I’ve not had the taste for it over the last few months because so much of what I want to say can’t be said, not here, not online. That’s the downside to having a personal blog, every post has consequences. Since becoming pregnant I’ve started culling earlier posts for just that reason – amazing how our views change about things as we gestate eh?! Also lunarpages have had a disturbing amount of downtime over the last few months so even when the taste or urge to blog has been strong, access has not! it’s just fortunate I’m not looking to earn a living from this blog otherwise I’d have been down a fair few sheckles as they sorted themselves out which is why I’m currently looking at other hosts for when I’m due to renew.
Things to remember
April 27th, 2008Gloria Swanson is reputed to have said
My mother and I could always look out the same window without ever seeing the same thing
Rock Band – the joys and the woes
April 22nd, 2008The fellah and I have been invited to a gaming weekend in reading this week – featured will be the eagerly awaited Rock Band *happy dances*
The international net
March 24th, 2008..I wish *sigh*
Half the interesting ‘new media’ apps are USA based and every website I’ve looked at for things I’ve considered purchasing of late are ‘ship to US only’ sites *sniff* ah well, I’ve taken to collecting pretty pictures instead with which to console myself. Let’s face it, I’m unlikely to have the cash to spend on pretty things soon, everyone seems determined to tell me how expensive childrearing will be – like I hadn’t already figured that out for myself!
New favourites
March 22nd, 2008I’m a typical girl in only one respect; I like pretty sparkly things of the jewelled persuasion but no matter how much perusing of the net and local jewellers I may have done I’ve never really found a gem that makes me go ‘OMG I MUST HAVE THAT!’ at least not until today.
Procrastination and college life
February 29th, 2008I’m currently sat in the ‘career planning’ lesson (most pointless lesson on the currculum) and I’m supposed to be blogging on studynet about: Read the rest of this entry »
Bags of stuff
January 28th, 2008The latest college assignments had me chuckling; first of all we have to keep a career planning blog, they’re trying to initiate some sort of micro social network within the group with these – at least that’s how it seems. They all have to be public, we are all supposed to keep up to date with each others progress and comment on that progress, they also want us to participate in polls and discussion boards.. This would be all fine and dandy assuming the techie responsible for setting up these career planning blogs had made it possible for us to add new entries *grin*
Being an adult
January 5th, 2008I said to Stef on new years eve that I’d not made any resolutions this year, but as I sat down to write this post I realised that I lied.
Stuff. It’s all good. Well..
December 5th, 2007Hurrah! for internet shopping say I.
Yup, aside from the beady goodness recently purchased from Hobbycraft (just a little hint there for my female relatives, that’s right it’s home made jewelery for you again this year *grin* learn to love it!) Christmas shopping online was practically finished by the end of November, that makes me very happy.
Chaos – the one true God.
October 14th, 2007Been thinking a lot about life and religion lately – don’t ask me why, these thought percolate through my head on occasion (especially if I’ve spent a lot of time confined to bed)The conclusion I’ve come to is that I think I do believe in God. Not your God of course, because they way I see it no matter the title, nobody has the same God, even if they give him the same name and worship in the same way, we all view her differently.
Comfort
September 29th, 2007There are times when everybody just wants a hug, it doesn’t always matter where the hug comes from they just need to feel the close physical presence of another person and the comfort it brings – you don’t even need to be upset or worried about anything, there’s just something in the human make-up that craves physical contact.
Learning..
September 28th, 2007It’s been a mad couple of weeks all told.
There was the rush up to Manchester to make sure all the funding for my course was sorted, it would have been simple and stress free had it not been for the time stood at the side of the M6 in the pouring rain with a non-functioning car - Andy will always be my saviour for driving down to pick us up so that I could make that appointment.
I like to move it move it..
August 30th, 2007We got back to Manchester sometime around 3am Wednesday morning, I have to say, I missed my pc.. Not because it’s a great pc – far from it, but because it has all my files and bookmarks in situ, which is why today I sat and weeded out all the useless stuff and dead links I’ve bookmarked over the last three years and added both ‘bookmark duplicate detector‘ and ‘Foxmarks bookmark synchronizer‘ to my list of ‘must have’ firefox add ons.
The Bridge Across Forever
August 24th, 2007I’ve always written down my thoughts and my feelings, many a time as a kid and young adult I’d sit up late at night scribbling notes into a diary or onto a nondescript pad of A4 paper. Having a blog has just made the process easier, typing is quicker than writing and I can capture my thoughts more fully, editing is simpler; merely a matter of highlighting text as opposed to laboriously copying the same thing over and over again as I refine the message I’m trying to get across.
Cunning spam
August 17th, 2007I’m not entirely sure why but this blog has had an explosion of visitors of late – I can only assume twitter and the socialset site have something to do with it..
The after party shoe
August 8th, 2007I’ve just come across this site and I have to say.. What a brilliant idea.
The redfootrevolution is here. There is nothing worse than that crippling sensation at the end of the night if you’ve been wearing heels – I was recently reminded of this after wearing an old pair for the first time in over a year.. Ouch.
Shell Island
August 6th, 2007I’ve discovered that I’m still not completely weaned away from my net addiction. We’ve been camping and not only did I have a complete lack of phone signal (which didn’t really bother me too much) but there was no internet – that did bother me.
I could live without my mobile. Honest..
July 29th, 2007I’ve been at my dads all week – hence lack of posting or general web presence. You see my dad is still using BT for his net connection – and it’s pants! That and his pc needs reformatting and basically mending with a new one (which Stef will be doing as soon as I get off here)
Congratulations
July 18th, 2007To Laura-Jane & Allan.
It was an absolutely fabulous wedding on Sunday – so fabulous in fact that it’s taken me until today to recover from it *grin*
Petty satisfactions
July 13th, 2007I know, I’m supposed to be working at becoming a better person yada yada yada. I can’t help it though.
Stuff to do
June 20th, 2007We went out for my Grandads 65th birthday on Saturday.
It was a pretty good night. Average meal in an ok restaurant followed by an evening at the Grosvenor casino – where my soon to be married cousin LJ decided to try her hand at every game *grin* it was most amusing to watch as the croupier tried to guide her and her fiance through 5 card stud poker.
Every other comment from the poor lass dealing was ‘please keep your cards on the table’ as they leaned back to ask all of us for advice on what to do. She was very nice about it, as were the other couple at the table, she even offered advice on when to fold because they obviously had nothing.. By the time they’d had enough there was quite a crowd gathered around for the show. Though that could just have been LJ’s presence since she is a bit of a stunner and tends to draw a crowd of admirers where ever she goes..
Dad won at the roulette as usual and even we had a flutter – got our taxi fare home so all was well. I don’t think anyone we were with came away with less than they started with (except for Pippa, she learned that she should really never gamble *grin*) so all in all a good night.
At what time?
June 10th, 2007There I was having a pretty interesting dream when, as it dissolved around me, I was forced to realise that the sound of ‘More than a feeling’ by Boston was not in fact coming from the car radio of my dream but was actually reverberating around the bedroom through the floorboards.
Freecycle funny
June 9th, 2007I know I’ve mentioned freecycle before, it’s a website where people post items they’re giving away on a first come first served basis. I’m a member of the manchester board and in this mornings digest there was a corker of a wanted ad: Read the rest of this entry »
Princess Leia’s metal bikini
June 7th, 2007Oh yeah – that’s a heading to grab your attention isn’t it? Men!
Actually, this post has been prompted by a link my fave Ubuntu tech posted on twitter, it had me doing an idle search for a costume after joking to Stef about maybe doing that for the next fancy dress party we attended.
We should start a company and make misery..
June 4th, 2007As the song goes anyway.
I’m really sick of always being tired and always being in pain, logically I know it’s worse at the moment because of the incipient arrival of certain biological functions – but logic does not enter into it where emotion is concerned.
m’a bad girl.
June 1st, 2007Well, not bad, just rude.
I was just the ‘victim’ of a sales caller – apparantly some of those surveys I participated in led to my number being given out *mental note, if they ask for your number stop doing the survey*
Reawakening the lonely post
May 30th, 2007That’s the post title on the Family web watch blog where I got tagged for this meme, why was I tagged there? I ‘unno, I read his other blog – the me and my drum one.
Let them eat cake
May 30th, 2007For today I baked a blinder! Seriously, it may not look all that but it’s soft and moist and MAN is it tasty!
If only I could figure out how to stop the chocolate chips from sinking to the bottom *sigh*
karaoke heaven
May 27th, 2007You see, on the one hand I’m missing out on the fantastic company of my in-laws (and obviously the love of my life since he’s there without me) on the other, it’s been non-stop karaoke here this weekend.
Obviously doing something right..
May 23rd, 2007I have proof.. A lass in the bank yesterday asked me if I was over 21.
Obviously I looked at her as if she was insane – didn’t she see the ’31′ tattoed on my forehead? How could she fail to notice that I am now part of the over 30′s group? Still, I guess Master K has given me the answer to this question *grin* I’m doing enough to hold back the years eh?!
Why women take so long in the loo
May 23rd, 2007I was sent an email detailing this very thing from a friend, a quick google procured me this link:
Stuff to do
May 22nd, 2007Well, i’ve recommenced driving lessons – here’s hoping *fingers crossed*
Simon (instructor) reckons I need 10hrs tops so including test fees that’ll be around £240 *sigh* it’s a dear do this driving malarky – and that’s even before I get a car! Still, at least it’ll be of some use in the future when i’m back in work.
SingSnap
May 19th, 2007I’m really loving the singsnap experience. Have spent most of this afternoon in the chatroom, it’s LITERALLY karaoke in your front room, everyone takes it in turn to sing a song – we had a bit if a Beatles thing going on at one point started by Chris from Masachusetts, mucho fun – especially since Stef decided to give up and join in when it was my turn to sing.
Horses in costume
May 17th, 2007That’s what I’m off to see this evening. I’ll be at the trafford centre by 4pm so we can buy our tickets for the 5pm show. I’m guessing we’ll go straight to karaoke from there since it’s Kay and Rob I’m accompanying to see the spirit of the horse.
Fire and Damnation
May 16th, 2007I didn’t get to have my driving lesson after all, pain interrupted my plans.
Seriously, I’m starting to feel a little paranoid, though to be fair that could just be residual pms. But since I’ve been trying to sort out getting a licence for a number of years now and each time I’ve been thwarted by finances or health issues, I am really considering the thought that just maybe it’s not meant to be..
So, I turned to the net to ease my woes, and it worked, I calmed down, life seemed brighter – the way it always does online until microsoft kicks in and the pc crashes or refuses to boot up the program I need and taunts me with the pretty blue screen of death.
Seriously.. Who the hell chose BLUE as the default colour for that screen? Surely red is a far more appropriate choice?! Or green? Green is supposed to be calming isn’t it? I’m sure that’s the real reason computers used to have green screens (at least my dads did, I think it was an amstrad.. But I digress..)
On the road again..
May 15th, 2007That’s right, today I finally recommence the driving lessons that going into hospital last year stopped.
It’s my party..
May 13th, 2007Yup 31 today. I am now officially classed as ‘early thirties’ (thanks for pointing that out Steviebabes, I’ll find a suitable revenge soon don’t you worry..)
KAAAAAAAAAaaraoke!
May 11th, 2007I got a call at the nth hour last night to join Kay for karaoke, it was a fun night – although I did walk into the pub just as a drunk was heaving a chair at a disabled guy.. Gotta love the locals in Swinton.
Pub singers
May 10th, 2007I, as a few of you already know, absolutely adore going to a karaoke, not just because I can sing (although I’ve been accused of this in the past) but because of the atmosphere a great karaoke can bring. It’s not all about THE BOOK and getting up, although having a cracking selection of songs is important, but it’s the KJ and the other punters who can make or break a night.
Been busy..
May 8th, 2007I’ve not been fully with it on the communication front for the last few days, my online experince has been pared down to about 4 twitters and the deletion of spam from my email accounts.
Bit of a whinge.
May 2nd, 2007I found this quite amusing, according to them next door, the wanker downstairs seems to think that we are responsible for his door getting the boot the other week.
Wern Isaf in Llangollen
April 30th, 2007Wondering why i’ve been so quiet the last few days? meh, betcha didn’t even notice lol
As it happens we were at a lovely campsite in Wales, you have to know it’s there to find it though – if it wasn’t for Simon leading the way we’d have been circling Llangollen for hours looking for it!
Happy England
April 23rd, 2007A belated St Georges day to you all – I received a politically incorrect text this morning that made me chuckle: Read the rest of this entry »
Back to work
April 23rd, 2007I went to the jobcentre plus this morning for my appointment with the DEA adviser, she’s a lovely lass but it was a bit of a wasted trip because the computer system was down and there was not a lot she could tell me without it.
Story of my life that, I’m beginning to think someone somewhere really doesn’t want me working. I asked for the appointment over a month ago *sigh* figures..
I’ve been in the position a few times over the last three years of feeling fit enough to re-enter the rat race and then I’ve fallen flat on my face with a full on relapse so the jobsearch plans were shelved.
This time I decided that, rather than wait around until I feel well enough to find a job, I’ll go in anyway, tell ‘em my limitations and get them to find a job that works around me instead of vice versa.
My happy place
April 22nd, 2007Since I’ve been such a misery all day I felt a little effort was needed in order to shake off those blues before bed. Stef started the process with our little trip to the trafford park driving range (open til 10pm, £10 for 100 balls and the hire of 2 clubs, it’s one to remember) but i’m still not back to cheerful so..
Play golf.
April 22nd, 2007Nothing cheers you up more than whacking a few balls over the driving range.
Nice fresh air, the sound of grunts and curses intermingle with laughter as people happily stand in their bays and just hit out as far as they can go.
Best cure for a bad mood I can think of – especially when you hit your stride and those little white spheres just sail into the distance with a satisfying CRACK!
There is a God!
April 22nd, 2007At least that’s how it looks. The noisy neighbour is back, but he’s brought a removal van with him.. Please let it all be as it appears! I could almost dance for joy, let’s hope the next tenant is a little more considerate eh?!
WTF?!
April 21st, 2007Very odd happenings around here.
Our neighbour appears to have vanished. We heard a load of banging last night but ignored it – he’s always banging doors, we’ve remarked a number of times on the hardiness of them the way he slams about.
Since we’re just ignoring him after the incidents mentioned in that there link we thought nothing of it and heaved a sigh of relief when it stopped, since it then went quiet we settled in to watch a film and thought no more of it.
*ahem* *points at calendar*
April 21st, 2007Yes, yes.. I know it’s shallow (as Stef made a point of telling me when he started reading over my shoulder) but the day in which we celebrate the arrival of my squalling, blood and mucal covered self into this world is close at hand.
I know, you already knew this, (I can see you checking that diary Claire..) but this post is not aimed at you, this post is a request to the odd family member who sneaks a peak occasionally:
Paypal protects you my ARSE!
April 18th, 2007Grand National
April 14th, 2007I WON!!!
*grin* so yah boo sucks to daddy dearest (his response to my text by the way was “No-one likes a big head” *snicker*)
I curse my father!
April 14th, 2007He rang up the other day with a couple of ‘tips’ for the grand national, I don’t gamble as a rule (i’m too poor) but he lives for it, horses are his lifesblood – if he could I swear he’d own a string of racehorses. Anyhow, now I feel like I have to lay on a bet or 2, this feeling has been exacerbated by the arrival of Ian coming to drag Stef up to the bookies.
This being so I’ve thrown a whole £7 between 3 horses (all £1.25 each way bets, man I’m such a risk taker LOL) I picked one by myself : ‘Silver Birch’ just on the name (I love those trees, my favourites after the lovely willow) the other 2 were the hot picks my daddy dearest urged me to bet on ‘Idle talk’ and ‘monkerhostin’ then Ian piped up and told me to pick one of the 100/1ers and he’d stick on a bet in my name, obviously I had to choose ‘knowhere’ had to be at 100/1 with a name like that didn’t it?.
Damnation, I was all comfy here
April 11th, 2007By ‘here’ I of course mean my email address, I managed to jump on the gmail bandwagon pretty early on when it was considered a great thing to get an invite (just before everyone had so many they couldn’t give ‘em away) now I may have to be changing things a bit according to a post I just read on the wiredhound blog (another MBL browse by)
Couldn’t have said it better myself
April 9th, 2007This letter says everything you need to know about ME/CFS
The fine art of blogging.
April 4th, 2007I received an email earlier from Dio over at Quasi Fictional asking me to write a post answering the question “What is a blog to you?” since said email was also peppered with such flattering phrases as ‘guru blogger’ and the insinuation was made that I am one of those almighty figures referred to as a ‘renowned blogger’ (I know, I nearly wet myself laughing at this point too) I figured, what the heck – a post is a post right?
Perceptions..
April 3rd, 2007You’ve gotta laugh really, I clicked on a twitter link and was directed to woot.com. The item on display was the black and decker scumbuster 2 piece set:
Blurb
April 3rd, 2007I went to the doctors this morning to get something to help me sleep, he’s given me a months worth of Phenargan (not liking the look of the possible side effects though)
Salford council..
April 2nd, 2007..Are SOOOOOOOOOooooooooooooooooooo much quicker at sorting things out than Manchester council.
Seriously, I recieved a phonecall at 09:05 this morning in response to the email I sent on saturday night (the complaint I made just before all hell broke loose) The lass on the phone said that it was definitely a serious matter but unfortunately they had to follow procedure – if there had been any evidence that he was involved in the door battering incident then he’d be out on his ear now, as it is..
I’m to fill out a diary. That’s right, a diary.
He gets told a complaint has been made about him (probably take him 30 seconds to realise by who) he then gets a formal warning and a letter drop will be made to the surrounding neighbours asking if they have heard anything or would like to also make any complaints about him.
Juuuuust great.
April 1st, 2007Ok, so I got a crime number from the police, the joiners came around and temporarily fitted a new lock and made an interim repair to the front door, we’ve a new one on order but for now I’m not leaving the place empty until it’s been fitted, no matter how secure they say the repair is.
Hows this for live blogging
April 1st, 2007I’ve just had my front door kicked in by the police.
Why?
Because Stef and Ian went downstaits before to get that TWAT to turn his music down (at gone 1am) so I could go to bed and sleep.
20 minutes later the front door goes, I go down, 2 lads in balaclavas with a large piece of wood (possibly a bat) are stood there demanding to know where my boyfriend was. I just said fuuck that and slammed the door, managed to turn the lock before they got to it, and hoofed it up to the phone and 999.
Back to work?
March 30th, 2007Don’t make me laugh!
The government are apparently eager to get all of us malingerers off incapacity benefit and back on the work force – at least that’s the story..
Popularity contests
March 30th, 2007It seems life does come full circle – even when it’s a virtual life.
I’m blaming Master K for this of course, he talked me into joining the twitter thing which in turn had me noticing a few other people on there, this in turn had me checking their blogs – which then had me link travelling.
Moving on up..
March 27th, 2007Sadly not in the ‘home’ sense of the word but I have taken the slightly scary first step of looking for work.
Karaoke
March 23rd, 2007What a night – seriously, it’s been an absolute corker – I can’t even remember the last time i wanted to blog about a night in the Bull *grin*
In synch?
March 21st, 2007If this hits the right buttons you are. Cheers Steve 
AN OPEN LETTER TO
MR. JAMES THATCHER
Banana cake
March 18th, 2007Today I have reigned supreme in the kitchen.. Only because himself wasn’t here of course, but supremely reigning I was indeedy.
I have made the lightest, tastiest banana and pecan cake ever. Seriously – it’s to die for. It could be because I used half the sugar I normally do, it could be because I used eggs laid by the most cossetted chickens in the country (now hows that for knowing where your food came from eh?!) or maybe it’s because I finally got wise to the vagaries of our cooker and managed to not burn the bottom whilst leaving the middle undercooked (as usually happens)
Go on then..
March 13th, 2007..Sum me up in 1000 words.
Or not *grin* I was interviewed today by Sean (some of you may remember him, he was the filthy beast with whom I used to live before getting this here lovenest with my honey) he’s now studying journalism at Salford uni and has to interview ‘someone interesting’ apparantly my CFS/ME issues come under that heading lol
Whaddaya know! Here was me thinking my humdrum life was of no interest to anyone but you little lot (all 6 or 7 of you regular visitors.. and by the way, how come only 3 of you ever comment? I love that K, Kelly and more recently HK have found something to say – but why do you others lurk so..?)
Attention mommy bloggers
March 11th, 2007recieved this via email from the lovely Steve.. Is it true?
Birth order
Your Clothes
1st baby: You begin wearing maternity clothes as soon as your OB/GYN
confirms your pregnancy.
Mother in law wisdom
March 9th, 2007My MiL made an interesting observation actually, not about cfs/me etc but about the mindset of people these days.
Bugger.
March 9th, 2007So I didn’t get DLA, I’m not shocked, the medical assessment was hellish and I knew in my gut I’d be refused any more financial help. It sucks, just because I look normal and healthy i’m obviously faking it as far as they’re concerned, they don’t see me on the days i need to rest up for 90% of my awake time!